was the only boy there. All the other boys of the neighborhood, including some of the later generals of the Israeli Army, went to the Kadoori school near the hill Tabor. It is unusual for an adolescent boy to agree to attend a girls' school, even if it is more convenient.
Sometime at that age, the boy Moshe underwent his great change. Nahalal of the Thirties was not a place where artists, or sensitive children, were appreciated. It was the first co-operative settlement, a center of the settlers' movement, a place where boys showed off their manliness, chided gentle children, adored tough fighters, and dreamed of the day when they, in their turn, would till the soil and fight the Arabs. Somewhere along the way, by conscious effort, the boy Moshe decided to emulate them. Like all sensitive children who turn away from their real character, he went all the way to the other extreme, and he had to pay a price for his artificial toughening; he developed an ulcer, a psychogenic disease commonly associated with people who try to put up a false front in order to disguise their feelings. Dayan did not learn to live with his emotions, but instead, choking them, became incapable of emotional relationships with others. He is not a man who overcame fear, but rather one who killed his fears, for whom fearlessness became a cult-the warrior who runs into battle, the general who personally takes part in retaliation raids, the Chief of Staff who appears in the middle of battles during the Sinai War, the Minister of Defense who goes up in an open jeep to the Mount of Olives while snipers are firing all around. His opponents think these are publicity stunts. But basically they are the acts of a man who wants to prove something to himself all the time. Daughter Yael senses this. She tries to depict such a man in her novel, Envy the Frightened. The hero is always trying to demonstrate to himself that he is a he-man, thereby becoming an emotional cripple. Such cultish manliness is typical of boys of sixteen or seventeen and usually disappears later on. But Dayan, once he decided to be¬